It is 3:30 am and I am wide awake. I want to be asleep but sleep is as elusive as a shadow. What’s keeping me awake?
I’ve been awake since 2:25 am. Snap, crackle and pop should be reserved for Rice Krispies and things that go bump-thump in the night should go away. The crazy freeze-thaw-freeze winter weather we’ve been having seems to be causing ice on our roof to expand and contact. The endless cacophony scares me. Now the adrenaline is running.
I like it quiet at night and dark. There are no electronic devices in the bedroom with screens going on and off or notifications pinging.
I tried counting sheep. I’ve prayed for family, friends, and even people I don’t like. I’ve gone around the world with my prayers, but I am still awake. I tried quoting memorized scripture but somehow, I am not remembering correctly so I’ll have to look it up in the morning. I’m even more awake now because I am annoyed that I cannot remember what I have committed to memory.
Bob is awake because I woke him up with, “Did you hear that?”
I told myself, “be anxious for nothing; cast all your care on Him.” That approach failed. It is now 5:30 am.
In my mind I see God beside me. With everything going on in the world He is not preoccupied somewhere else. Not in a different country, with a different person. But here with me. Hovering over me; there is comfort in that.
So much of this is an imagined threat. I remind myself that 80% of all the things we worry about never come to pass. I stop thinking, “Don’t worry” and start with “Trust. You’re going to be OK.”
Still not asleep and now it is time to get up.
Its going to be a 3- coffee day!
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