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Guest post from Kathy Brown sharing her Christmas story.

“When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them.” Luke 2:17-18

It has been a very tough year. Very rewarding in many ways, but also disappointing in many other ways. I’ve made new friends, heard a lot of music, traveled and worked with a world class orchestra, bonded with my niece, served at my church a little bit, took several seminary courses among other things. On the other hand, I haven’t had sufficient employment in over a year, my house is out of order, my devotions have slipped, my road rage has increased, and stress has creeped – no, stormed – into my life again.

About three weeks ago, with three papers, a sermon and a final exam still to complete, I was asked if I would volunteer for the Singing Christmas Tree which was being performed at the Jubilee Auditorium here in Edmonton, Alberta. My heart leapt inside me. It leapt because I was asked to recruit volunteers to sell Singing Christmas Tree merchandise and specifically a CD that was recently made by an Edmonton singer/songwriter and friend, Kristen Fersovitch. Kristen’s voice touches me in a special way, and her story touches me further.

Immediately, my mind traveled back in time to Christmas 2003. I was in the palm of God’s hand as I traveled from Michigan to see the Singing Christmas Tree and meet the people who had led me to Christ earlier that year. That was my first Christmas, and I was in love with Jesus. There is no other way to say it than that. Here is my journal entry for December 13, 2003, just to give you an idea:

“Christmas is coming early for me this year. It feels very Christmas-y, too, sitting in this airport in Minneapolis. There are some very large flakes sort of drifting around outside the airport windows. I feel surrounded by his love, his grace, his holy spirit. This trip is with him.
I feel as if I am standing in the palm of his huge hand as he lifts me up and transports me across nearly 2000 miles. But first, he brings me close to his face, and his wise eyes gaze into mine and comfort me. I raise my arms in a big V to worship him – maybe to claim a victory of faith in him – this trip. He grins and nods.
Then he brings me to his chest and I reach out to touch his heart through the white linen covering him. Such a large heart. My tiny little hand rests upon it and feels the beat of the blood pumping through it. Long ago, he shed that blood so that I might live. His blood flowed out of his body, out of his heart, and in essence poured into my body and my heart. And when it flowed into me and settled in my veins, his blood gave me new life. His blood flowing into me carried his body, his heart, and his love.
When we accept these gifts we are also given a light and a certain opportunity, too. An opportunity to shine the light along the path to the kingdom for others.
He lifts me back up to his face and smiles at me. Then he touches my little heart with his finger. I open my heart and feel my blood willingly leave my body and flow into him. His life for me; my life for him. That’s the deal.
Then he gently blows me off the palm of his hand to see if I will fly…”

And so I flew to Edmonton. The next day, I went to Central Tabernacle and spoke at church. And then, I saw the Singing Christmas Tree for the very first time. What an amazing show. I could go into detail about the people involved in the Tree. But it was one particular group singing one particular song that spoke to me that day. Kathy, Kennedy and Kristen Miller sang “Your Presence for Christmas.” This mother and her two daughters harmonized seemingly perfectly together – I was stunned with the beauty of their voices and the beauty of the song, which basically says, “Lord, I want your presence for Christmas.” Honestly, they touched my heart.

A week later, I was baptized behind the Singing Christmas Tree – a truly unique experience. Pastor Bob and Central Tabernacle were tremendously generous to me and filled the baptismal at a very inconvenient time for the church. I studied about baptism the entire night prior to that. An excerpt from my journal on December 20, 2003:

“As I go down into the water, Jesus, let me remember that you gave your life on the cross for me. Then let me die with you. Completely. I would have the water turn black with my sin if I could, Jesus, but I know that sin will forever be within me. And I know that even if I could expel my sin into the water, the water would be clear as I come up out of it because your blood will have washed away whatever sins were deposited there. You are the only one that has the power to redeem my sin – I can’t do it nor can Pastor Bob. As I come up out of the water, Jesus, let the miracle of your resurrection and the grace of your forgiveness strike me as I am reborn in your holy spirit.”

My first Christmas was an amazing experience spent in the presence of Jesus and the people at Central Tabernacle. I had been telling everybody I met about Jesus since I met him in June, and I continued on my way back to Michigan from Edmonton. Stewardesses, co-passengers on the flights, people in the airports, bookstores, etc. In fact, I was almost late for my plane because I was busy telling the story to someone at the B&B where I was staying. This was the experience of my first love, and I could not help but share the good news with others. And I remember being surprised that as people listened, they seemed amazed.

Visuals of these experiences flew through my mind as I pondered volunteering for the tree this year. But I also thought about the schoolwork I had to do and I wasn’t sure I was going to make it. I felt a familiar nudge, and it only took a few seconds to decide to return to my first love! It seemed like the right thing to do. And I figured if it was the right thing to do, I would know it by God helping me get through all my schoolwork anyways. I lined up volunteers for the merchandise table and got back to my schoolwork until performance time.

I was filled with anticipation as the first performance approached. All of my volunteers showed up and were excellent! I saw many familiar faces as many of my friends are involved in the Tree. We managed to secure seats for the performance and as the light dimmed the sense of excitement was almost too much to bear. John Cameron opened this show “The Perfect Gift” in fine form and all the first half performers were fantastic. Intermission was filled with cheer – people were on a high and getting into the Christmas spirit.

Back for the second half, and yet more great performers. I particularly liked the Twelve Days of Christmas performed a cappella by twelve men. Beautiful voices. And then, the moment I’d been waiting for – first, Kennedy Miller sang a beautiful song for her sister, now Kristen Miller-Fersovitch. And then, Kristen glided gracefully across the stage in a beautiful blue gown. A lot has transpired since I first saw Kristen sing with her sister and mother in 2003. She is now married to Mike and has three gorgeous boys – Beckett, Tayven and Lincoln.

A couple of years ago, she was also diagnosed with terminal cancer. That is all I intend to say about that, because frankly, she doesn’t identify herself with cancer. Rather she identifies herself with living everyday meaningfully with a fully expressed faith in Christ. Really, Kristen is one of the most dynamic people I’ve met – there is a radiant energy around her that infuses those around her, including me.

Her performance at the Singing Christmas Tree was breathtaking and again, my mind traveled back through the years to 2003, and I marveled at God’s work in her life. After the performances, she would come out and sign CDs and I could see her energy touching others. When you are standing for Christ in a Christ-like manner, you beckon people to him.

For the rest of the performances, I sat out and studied in the lobby of the Jubilee. Sunday night finally rolled around, and as I was cashing out in the staff room, Kristen came and her dad came in. I could not believe how energized Kristen seemed to be after a long weekend of work! We chatted for a while and then it was finally time to leave. I had purchased one of Kristen’s CDs finally on Sunday and as I drove home, exhausted yet somehow exhilarated, I listened as “Songs from Home” spoke to me for the first time of many in the last week.

All of the worries, all of the cares, all of the burdens, all of the schoolwork to be done, all of the family strife, all of the weight gained, all of the health issues, all of the failure – all of these things led to many tears shed this past year and this past week. More than have been shed in quite a while. Certainly, these are not proud moments. But over the last couple of days, as this music has seeped into my heart, and I listened to the first song on the album – “Hold on,” I began to feel some strength return to this weary body. The words infused my mind. “Hold on, don’t let go, you might figure out you’re stronger than you know…”

I had to give a sermon in one of my classes a couple of days ago, and the text for the sermon was the Christmas Story, the story of the announcement of the birth of Jesus to the shepherds. That was their first Christmas, and we read about the results of their newfound faith in Jesus in Luke 2:17-18 above. They spread the good news! It didn’t matter that they were outcasts, dirty, and the lowest of social ladder. I thought back to my own first Christmas and first love and how Jesus just had to be shared. As Kristen sings in her song “Christmastime,”

“I’ve got this joy in my heart something I cannot hide
It brings me hope, it brings me peace
It’s come and changed my life
And though my heart may be broken
And my world may seem destroyed
That precious child He has brought me joy.”

Lord, I thank you for Kristen, her voice, her life, her music that pours from her heart on the inside and radiates beauty on the outside. Thank you for inspiring her to inspire others, including me, to return to their first love. I pray you bless her, comfort her, heal her, and love her this Christmastime as she celebrates life in Christ with family and friends. Amen.

Bob Jones

Happily married to Jocelyn for 44 years. We have two adult sons, Cory and his wife Lynsey and their son Vincent and daughter Jayda; Jean Marc and his wife Angie and their three daughters, Quinn, Lena and Annora. I love inspiring people through communicating, blogging, and coaching. I enjoy writing, running, and reading. I'm a fan of the Double E, Bruins, Celtics, Red Sox and Pats. Follow me on Twitter @bobjones49ers

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