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I was nervous…. and I had reason to be. Who would provide?

I was about to tell my Jewish mother that I was seriously thinking of getting engaged and I didn’t know how she would take it. She liked Patti as a person well enough. We’d been dating for a year and that was no big deal. But Patti wasn’t Jewish and so marriage, I knew, would be another issue.

Steve HertzogRev. Stephen Hertzog is an elder at North Pointe and the former President of Vanguard College. He presently serves as Eurasia Regional Director with the Pentecostal Assemblies of Canada. Stephen oversaw the relocation of the College into a facility of its own, completed multiple millions of dollars of major renovations, established a scholarship program and the PAOC’s largest Missions support from a Bible College – all debt free.


After much prayer, I broke the news to my mom as gingerly as I knew how (I’ve never exactly been accused of being the king of tact!). Still, it did not go over well… kind of like an Israeli flag at a Hezbollah meeting. Mom was, to say the least, not a happy camper. Immediately she protested.

Though the real objection was Patti’s not-Jewishness, in her mind there were all sorts of other reasons it was a bad idea… most of them economic.


“You’re both still students,” she reminded me. “You have one year of your Master’s left, and Patti has a year left on her diploma too. How will you live for that year?”

It was a valid question. “I’ve applied for scholarships. If I get them, we’ll be fine.” I thought it was a good answer, but apparently the “if” was the problem. “IF?!” she exclaimed. “What if you don’t get them?” Before I could answer, she was on to her next objection. “And even if you get them, what happens after the year is up? When you graduate, what then? You want to be a teacher, & there are no teaching jobs in Quebec!”

Teachers were being fired, not hired. How was I to answer this?


Ever have one of those times when you say something that makes perfect sense in a Christian context but sounds like foolishness to those without the same faith assumptions? This was it.

Almost instinctively I opened my mouth & retorted: “If I can’t get a job in teaching, I’ll do something else. If I have to, I’ll wash dishes, I’ll park cars… Somehow the Lord will provide a job for me.”

When my mother heard that, it was the last straw. Here I was, a kid… all of 21 years old… her youngest son… her baby… telling her from my vast experience in the big bad world (I had never lived away from home a day in my life) that because God was on my side, everything would turn out OK.


She went ballistic. She pointed her finger at me, looked me square in the eye, & yelled at the top of her lungs: “The Lord will provide? The Lord will provide?? I don’t think that’s a very responsible attitude from a young man about to get married!!”

I can’t really blame my mother for thinking I was, perhaps, a few fries short of a happy meal. She wasn’t trying to rain on my parade; she was just trying to protect me from future pain by giving me a large (& loud) dose of historical reality. She had lived through WWII, the death of her own mother at a young age, an abusive stepmother, a divorce, and raising three rambunctious boys by herself.

A lot of things in life hadn’t “turned out” for her. And I really did have little or no life experience on which to base my youthful optimism.


However, I did have something much better than experience… something she couldn’t understand. I had the Word of God and the promises of Jehovah-Jireh, my Provider. I had Psalm 37:25, “I was young, and now I am old, but I have never seen the righteous forsaken, or their seed begging for bread.”

At 21, I didn’t know much but I knew my God. It turned out that would be more than enough.

The next day I walked into my office at McGill University. There was an envelope in my mailbox from one of the organizations I had applied to for a big scholarship…about $9500 (a lot of money in 1982). But I knew it was a rejection letter because someone else in my department had already got one and they never give two to the same department in the same school in the same year.

Like I said, I didn’t know much. As I opened it, the letter read: “Dear Mr. Hertzog, we are pleased to inform you that ….”PLEASED!! They’re PLEASED!! I threw the letter up in the air and let out a shout, “I got it! I got it!”


I was so excited. I had to tell someone. Who to call first? Perhaps had I been more romantic, it would’ve been Patti. But now I had something to prove. Patti would find out next.

I picked up the phone and dialed my home number. As soon as my mother answered, I blurted out the good news. I didn’t want to gloat but I had to let her know that the Lord had indeed provided…and not 24 hours after she had questioned His ability to do so. All she could say was “That’s wonderful, son.”

And she has never questioned His ability or willingness to provide for us again.

Patti and I did not starve that year. We actually lived quite well, thank you very much. And after graduation? My mother was right. I didn’t get a teaching job. I was offered TWO teaching jobs!! And that’s how it’s been all our lives.

We’ve received scholarships we should have never gotten and jobs we weren’t even qualified for (including becoming a pastor and later a bible college President!).

I was 21 then, and I’m 62 now, but still I have never seen the righteous forsaken, or their seed begging for bread.


I’m glad my mother laid down the gauntlet before the Lord that day 22 years ago. It was like she was telling God: “I don’t believe you can take care of my son.” And though it’s not biblical, in my mind’s eye I can just see the Lord responding by rolling up His sleeve, stretching out His arm, parting the heavens & saying: “O yeah? Well he’s My son too lady! Watch this…”

We’ve been watching with amazement how He has provided for us ever since.

What He’s done for us, He’ll do for you too.

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Bob Jones

Happily married to Jocelyn for 44 years. We have two adult sons, Cory and his wife Lynsey and their son Vincent and daughter Jayda; Jean Marc and his wife Angie and their three daughters, Quinn, Lena and Annora. I love inspiring people through communicating, blogging, and coaching. I enjoy writing, running, and reading. I'm a fan of the Double E, Bruins, Celtics, Red Sox and Pats. Follow me on Twitter @bobjones49ers


  • Mike Hendrick says:

    Could have not come at a better time. I am facing a big decision where God is seemingly leading me into but the initial part is there is no provision in it. I have to trust God in a way in a big way. It does not make practical sense but yet I feel I need to do this opportunity and that God will be big enough to provide all I have need of and more. All I hear is his gentle words fear not repeat over and over again.

  • Cynthia says:

    Wow, what an encouragement. Jehovah-Jireh, yes that’s who my God is. Love you Lord.

  • bob jones says:

    Moving forward in faith is not about having no fear. The greatest people of faith faced their fears and moved forward. If believers waited to act until they had no fear there would be zero accomplished. Thanks for sharing, Mike.

  • bob jones says:

    Your post is an act of praise…to the Lord. Thanks, Cynthia.

  • Sheri says:

    Awesome story. Thx for this.
    I’d read Steve’s book if he wrote one!

  • Julie MacKenzie says:

    I loved this story Pastor Bob. I have experienced this situation myself. Especially, after my divorce…after 25 years of marriage. Having stayed at home to raise my children for 16 years…I had many questions. How was I going to support myself? Is someone going to hire me after being home for 16 years? Have I forgotten all of my skills? It was frightening. But, I had a gal who became a friend at a Leisure Centre, where I worked out at the gym. She was the manager there. She said to me, before the troubles in my marriage started to happen…”If you ever need a job, I would hire you in a heartbeat. We could use someone like you at this front desk, handling our customers that come here. You have the right personality & people skills needed for this job”. So, when I was going through my divorce…I called her & asked if she had a job for me. She said, “Yes…when do you want to start?” I answered…”When my youngest daughter goes back to school in the Fall., the day after Labor Day”. She said “OK, see you then, at 8:30 am”. I was so shocked & so thankful. She really “walked the walk, & talked the talk”. To this day, she is one of my best friends. God has shown me the way, many times since then. But, you can’t rest on your laurels…you have to take action as well. I have been blessed & I am so grateful.

  • Adena Lowry says:

    Thank you . So needed for a bit of encouragement. Moved my heart .

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